Hey, good people! I've neglected this poor blog lately, so here is an update sort of post. I have been working part-time at the non-profit organization which shall remain anonymous, and enjoying that. I've also been busy with AWANA, youth group, and Bible Study. And still, thankfully, I have some time to spend with some friends and my dear family. Though we're all getting so busy, I may need to fight for family meals and make sure they happen.
The fall weather is here! Cooler air brings lovely reprieve from West Texas summer heat. People were decked out in sweaters at church yesterday, and hot chocolate, snickerdoodles, and fall decorations are making appearances.
On a more somber note - Lately I have been finally learning who I am. I long knew I held certain core values, like homeschooling and openness to many children - not as law for others, but as things I see supported by Scripture, things I believe passionately to be good and beautiful blessings. But it took a painful experience to help me realize, not just in theory but in fact, just how important these things are to me. When it comes to relationships, I cannot ignore or quiet that part of who I am or think I can easily change it. And I think if God gave those dreams to me, He did so for a reason, and He will show me what that is in His good time.
So I'm praying boldly to the God who invented Romance to lead me where He will, and to bring good wives to all my dear brothers in Christ, wives who will perfectly complement them and follow them anywhere. I know we still have choices, but He is also totally sovereign. Oh the beautiful frustrating mystery of it!
And while I pray, I'm running into the Strong Tower, which is always serene and safe in the midst of battle.
In summary: God is good, relationships are hard and wonderful... and fall is here! Three nice categories for my list of blessings, which I have not been counting for several weeks.
~ Fall ~141. Sunday nap under a quilt - restful and cozy!
142. Fellowship with sweet friends in a coffee shop after church
143. Brighter stars (I think cold air makes them sharper, don't you?
144. A plaid wool skirt and shawl - heather grey, lovely, warm, and Scottish.
145. Spiced Chai
146. Cassette tapes of The Hobbit in the car- wonderfully dramatized, but with the most horrid Renaissance musical interludes. ;-)
147. Simmering homemade chicken and vegetable stock on the stove
148. Fall flowers from the garden - a sweet bouquet in a white pitcher
149. Chickens the size of doves (they're growing fast!)
150. October - the Birthday Month in our family!
~ People ~151. Two-year-old people. I kept a little girl this weekend so her mommy and daddy could go on a date. I forget how disturbing it can be to have a stranger show up for the day instead of your parent. I don't blame her for crying, and ordering me from her room, and sobbing "No Tankyou!" when I begged her to come eat dinner. Sometimes I just need to crawl back in bed and take a nap, too. Sometimes I don't want to be around anyone. And sometimes I forget what patience mothers must have, and God infinitely more!
152. My dear co-worker, T. She makes me laugh so much. Not many people will break out in musical numbers with you while editing documents, or discuss the pointless aspects of Facebook, or commiserate over the lack of commas in AP style. And she has the coolest hair, which she cuts herself.
|one of my glorious occupations ;-)|
154. Gentlemen who make sure ladies find their way to cars in the dark
155. Grandparents and Rosa's Cafe for Sunday lunch
156. Exuberant hugs from M.
157. The cellist and guitarist, lovingly lending their talent during Communion to remind us of Christ's beautiful sacrifice.
158. Hearing a mom complain about the infant-hood of her child, how exhausting it was, glad she was older now. I was sad, because I've never had even one child, but I have heard other moms treasure those fleeting months. I hope if I am ever blessed with one or more children that I can enjoy every moment of that beautiful sacrifice. I'm thankful for the reminder that it will not be easy, but sad to hear complaints about motherhood. And I think - What am I complaining about that someone else longs for? Am I enjoying my freedom to serve as an unmarried lady as God's current gift, fleeting as it may be too?
159. Compassion and forgiveness when I am weak, fearful, and unintentionally hurt others.
160. Abundant opportunities to minister to my little sisters in Christ, and grow myself from spending time with them!
~ God ~161. Strong Tower
162. Everlasting Love
164. The Tender One who tends my soul
165. Love better than mine
166. Ancient of days
167. Fighter of Guilt Monsters
168. Coming King
169. The Prairie Maker
170. The Dream Giver
Happy Monday to you! I still owe you a post on letter-writing. Hopefully that will come soon. Anything else particularly you'd like me to blog on?